just sittenhere thinking of the things weve through not only between us but with our own self how it has changed who n how we act today if only i had a MAGIC wand to the way it was in the begining where our lifes werent so out a wack my son would be home as well as ur mom so we try to stay numb more n it destoys us pulling ourselfs/us apart. I HATE THIS FEELING.....................................
All these yrs of built up shit
got me so mentally n physically wrecked
its time my issues are dealt with
Who is this person i've become?
exhausted, so damn lost need to find me
the happy peaceful loving one
this journey ill begin. leaving anger n craziness behind
My happy loving self i desperately yearn to find
inspired by anger management lol
7/13/11
"LIL SIS OF MINE"
Which way do i go,
should i be nice
r let my whistle blow!?
If u didnt want 2 go camping
all u had to do,
was f***en say so.
When will auntie b here?
is all ur niece would ask
we made plans, u didnt have 2 b
such a f***en ass.
I love u but ur being foul
a simple' sorry guys, aint ready quit now
thats pretty f***ed up! all i can say is WOW
so much 4 the nice,I aint feeling it somehow
Oh wait maybe iam a lil bit
we both know i can keep going
4 this is minor compared 2 all the other shit.
On 1 hand ur a pitbull striking at n-e time
N the other im blessed
u make me happy n once in awhile
I remember when ur cord fell off i saw u bleed
i was only 9 boy did i freak
I remember power rangers n barney
how ud play army
the way we all jumped watching blair project
for those memories ill never forget
I remember u calling me eweie
n all those times u spent in juvy
We were so close,even thought of u as my son
how could i of been so blind
to what u have become
A demon stole kissaphers body
an evil washed over u,
turning ur thoughts sick n twisted
ur actions destroyed us all
now in prison u will crawl
hope all the pain n suffering u caused,
hits u like a brick wall
To much to bare
there r no words 4 how i feel
FOREVER
brand new day
Tue Jun 21, 2011, 11:05 AM
For its a brand new day
thinkin thoughts in a brand new way
think its time to take out the boat
on the water my mind will float
lets take the kids fishin
a big fish ill b wishin
for today is a brand new day
thinkin thoughts in a brand new way
'''Danny'''
Tue Jun 21, 2011, 12:44 AM
I remember the day back when i couldnt stand u
ur instagating ways drove me nuts
made me think u were a stupid fuck
yrs went on n i began 2 c
ur intentions n what they really mean
a greater power brought us together
n with that we made
a remarkable daughter...
u been through so much through out ur life
filled with so much pain ur world
felt like u couldnt maintain
its been over a yr scence uv been gone
i was the last 1 u called
if only i knew something was wrong
u were a blessing 2 us all
u held me up n made me stand
when all i wanted to do was crawl
i hope ur up there look'en down
d
some say im crazy
but, they dont know
its just how the way
my mind flows
31 yrs of happiness n pain
harsh memories,
wished they go away.
they say time heals all wounds
when does it start,when does it end
r am i on pause
n this is my forever doom.................
"LIL SIS OF MINE"
Which way do i go,
should i be nice
r let my whistle blow!?
If u didnt want 2 go camping
all u had to do,
was f***en say so.
When will auntie b here?
is all ur niece would ask
we made plans, u didnt have 2 b
such a f***en ass.
I love u but ur being foul
a simple' sorry guys, aint ready quit now
thats pretty f***ed up! all i can say is WOW
so much 4 the nice,I aint feeling it somehow
Oh wait maybe iam a lil bit
we both know i can keep going
4 this is minor compared 2 all the other shit.
On 1 hand ur a pitbull striking at n-e time
N the other im blessed
u make me happy n once in awhile
just when i feel im doing well no thoughts of u no longer suffocating no longer am i in hell.
then out from nowhere i hear ur name all those feelings i thought were gone struck me like lightning feeling the familiar pain my world that was once filled with sunshine so bright instintatly turned to night,so dark full of rain
my cement wall starts to crumble then totally breakdown no matter how fast i try to keep my wall up i couldnt keep control couldnt stop the rain
i saw u tried to ignore tried not to look tried to block tried to hide the pain tried to be ok feeling the way i still feel about u i no know ill never be the same no more sunsh
fuck u
Mon Oct 17, 2011, 10:52 PM
fuck ur name fuck ur face fuck ur beats fuck aliens fuck guitars fuck skate boards fuck jumbo seeds fuck all the things that remind me
I miss my son so fucking much. im so empty ,lost i feel as if im not even here like only my body can be seen i try so hard to work on our relationship but am not goin no where ive been through alot of things groing up and even now i only start to wonder if i even know who iam ive neverd healed my past wounds or even the present i know in my heart how i feel what is right i try to fix so many things in my life but i havnt even fixed myself i dont even know how to or where to begin counsaling didnt even help and we/i have been through many i need him/and i needed davy to help- me help myself if that makes sence im an idiot i dont know common se